Changes

 It's been a while since my last update. Partially because we've been busy putting new processes and habits into place and partially because it's taken a lot of energy to adjust to our new normal.

Leah is determined, strong and getting healthier by the day. We're insanely proud of her drive. Right now, she is attending treatment 5x a week onsite. Soon, she'll be back to school and attending late afternoon/early evening group sessions. Her physical health has restored beautifully.

I'd like to focus this post on emotional health because somedays we're great; and somedays I feel unrecognizable, even to myself. 

I'm an extreme extrovert, yet social experiences that used to bring me immense joy feel tough for reasons I am not even sure I can explain. Somedays my heart and head feel so heavy, they're grounded. On the floor.  I feel like a worm, inching forward by only the energy I can muster in my toes. I tell myself that's okay, I am STILL MOVING FORWARD.

The Jonswolds are all different people than we were last year. I'm a different mom than I was is early 2023. A different wife. A different friend. I think the pendulum will swing back closer to my extroverted side in the months to come, but it will take time.

ED's are a family disease and we need to treat them as such. We all need time, comfort and healing. 

My goal for this week is to make a connection with a family therapist as we continue this journey. We need to talk together, grow together, process together because we're all in this TOGETHER!

One of the greatest compliments I've gotten through this process is how special and deep our family loves each other. I don't think I realized that was a rarity. We do. We love each other BIG, but BIG doesn't equal perfect. This is a time for hugs and healing. <3 

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